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[15 Nov 2009|12:55am] |
"Proof of feeling"
ink and collage on paper, 12" x 14.5", professionally float framed in a 15" x 17.5" frame. Signed and dated.
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| I know this is completely silly... |
[15 Nov 2009|05:00pm] |
But FUCK that I can't find people to rescue me in Mystery Dungeon! All the communities and forums I look on are dead by at least a week. Bleargh!
(Explorers of Sky ftw, btw.)
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| The Convenient Widow |
[15 Nov 2009|09:27pm] |
Why do you treat him like this? He's had a complicated stroke that has levelled his world and you do THIS to him? What kind of woman ARE you, anyway? What kind of woman edits out the TRUE people who love him and want to fight his corner? What kind of woman bans his children from seeing him because they aren't hers? What kind of woman decides that she know longer has a husband and packs all his photos and cherished possessions away? What kind of woman wriggles out of seeing her husband and moves his hated BROTHER in? What kind of woman holds all the cards yet KNOWINGLY let him slip thru the NHS system, so he rots like an apple in the corner?
What kind of woman? Its You. Fuck You.
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| CD BURNERS and a QUESTION la ... |
[15 Nov 2009|04:19pm] |
So, I'm spending a day recovering from MSG at Lung Fung's, eating healthnut corn chips, V8, etc. Mindless web-surfing for once, just like in the old days. Despite the fact that there is STILL a trojan in my computer which has taken over my main firewall, etc., and which keeps demanding that my computer send all its info to a certain hacker in China...
I block it for now, which means I also block firewall warnings and Microsoft Updates... And lots of harmless IPs...
But I'm trying to find a new CD burner programme that won't try to kill me like my last one did - AND CONTINUES TO DO - with its damned CDilla and assorted South Korean riffraff. All I want is to burn files and programmes so that they don't carry trojans - is that too much to ask - to not have my Messenger hijacked by Koreans, and my computer by Chinese, or to find "fbioffice" and ".gov" cookies on my computer?!"
"Samsung ROXIO / Adaptec EasyCD Creator / Direct CD"... That's what it's called. Avoid it like the plague!
Here's a CD burner I was looking at... "LONGTION Data CD Burner" - looks good! Could be a nice complement to the SONIC thing I have but am afraid to use... OK! Let's read a little bit about the company, "Longtion"...
LONGTION. "Located in the Yuhong District of Shenyang, China, the Longtion Software has been developing innovative software products for a worldwide client base since 1998. Our products are in use by thousands of corporate, government and ISV developers. "
ummmm... what other programmes does it make?........
"CONQUER". Version 1.0. "Produce tanks and command them to destroy the enemy's infrastructure!"
um... ok... i don't think i want this... ha ha ...
Well - maybe you can help me find a SAFE free CD burner. (It needs to be able to burn Windows files onto a CD to be used like a drive). Here are my choices so far:
Sonic DigitalMedia - which I have, but which doesn't have the Windows files thingie unless you pay for upgrade. Sonic has a lot of music production, Hedgehog, etc., software as well. OH WAIT - Sonic Solutions might be related to ROXIO.com! (Sonic RecordNow 7.3).
Ashampoo Burning Studio (free) - http://www.download.cnet.com/Ashampoo-Burning-Studio-Free/3000-2646_4-10776287.html - All I remember about German ASHAMPOO is they are nuts about the whole product-registry thing, and this bothered me a lot.
Cheetah - costs about $15 - http://www.download.cnet.com/Cheetah-CD-Burner/3000-2646_4-10172045.html
So i have this question... Can you schedule a music-player - e.g., WindowsMedia, RealPlayer, LastFM, Pandora, or other - to play certain CDs or songs at certain TIMES? If yes, which players? And if yes, would it be possible to use them to SCHEDULE dif online radio feeds at dif times of day?!?!?! This is kinda important! thx.
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You’re a fucking selfish asshole. Do you do this to people you love? If you loved me, you wouldn’t be ignoring me right now. I have a strong and intense feeling towards people ignoring me, as it takes me back to my childhood where it was prevalent among my peers/friends. I simply cannot handle it. I panic and I need the reassurance that you are not doing that to me. I know I need to realize that those two problems are different from each other But you said yourself that you need to work on communication. When are you going to start that? When YOU feel like it? Right when I was falling for you all over again, you stop talking to me. That is the most hateful thing someone has ever done to me. The sad part is I don’t think you even realize it. You talk to me so much in ONE day and then you don’t talk to me at all for the next three days, or like last time, a whole month. I can’t keep doing this. This is so hard on me and I hate the feelings that come with it and how it makes me feel.
I can’t be in a relationship with you where you CHOOSE to not talk to me.
“I’ve come to love your disappearing acts. Do one more pretty please?” Alkaline Trio, Calling All Skeletons.
Fuck you, Matt.
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| I can't believe you just said that holy shit |
[14 Nov 2009|09:36pm] |
Just because you're 30 years older than me, don't think I won't let you fucking have it when you make racist comments. Saying shit like "typical Germans, of course they would have a basement with a trapdoor to hide in just in case the Jews come back to get them" in front of someone you pretty much just met, whose family is German (and you know it) is totally un-fucking-acceptable. You are so lucky we were in such a public place. Not only did you insult me, my family and my heritage, but I am horrified that you so carelessly imply that Jewish people are so childish and uncivilized that they would "come back to get us". It seems to me like the only indecent people in this world are the ones like you.
On another note, you're fucking 50 something and act like you're "hip" and "cool". Get over yourself. You practically have a mullet, and high-waisted grandma jeans went out of style a long time ago, honey.
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[14 Nov 2009|12:02pm] |
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Fuck you for having the balls to not show up. After all the bullshit I've had to deal with, I would think you'd learn. Hell, maybe I'M the one that needs to learn. Fuck you.
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| twas a good year for corn and rot |
[14 Nov 2009|08:58am] |
i'm supposed to have lunch w/ someone and i'm not sure i can make it - and the only reason i can think i'm ill today, (when i shouldn't be, after a 2-day migraine and rest), is because i had some corn chips last night that were processed in facilities that also process wheat/gluten. this is absolutely ridiculous. i want my money back.
btw - the title of this post actually refers to something else - the late, wet, abundant and stressful corn harvest this year
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| Planning new tattoos. |
[11 Nov 2009|12:18am] |
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Okay, so, bear with me for a bit of an explanation, but I want to know what you all think!
I love animals all around, but dogs and cats are really special to me. Unfortunately, my cat Beezer passed away about a month ago while I was at school. He was very special to me, and he always used to lay on my feet in the position of the image I'm planning on. To sort of "balance it out in a way, I decided to plan on one of Kurt's dogs on my left foot. I'm a dog person and I always will be. The dog I'm planning on is sort of a 'collective' of my dogs. They're all very close to me and I love them very much. Two of them have passed and one is still quite young. I figured it'd be a nice way to honor the animals that have touched my life in so many ways.
So this isn't totally boring, here are the images that I'm planning on.
( + 2. )
What do you guys think?
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[11 Nov 2009|11:42pm] |
In case any of you guys are looking for the band's forum, much like I was. Here's one and almost everyone from LJ is welcome to join and have fun!
Oh and btw, they have new layout on MySpace, which is pretty wicked.
http://www.myspace.com/theused
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| everything is fine dot dot dot |
[10 Nov 2009|10:38pm] |
So - I have some cool things to say pretty soon, but it's garbage-night and I have to get to that, since I missed it last week - although I think they came too late for industrious moi.
Today I got mad at dog for the first time, but he's really good about respecting me when the message is clear. I was trying to prepare to "go out", and this usually means I need a bit of space so I can think, but he kept trying to eat my feet. I put my foot down and he became all like, "Omg - I don't actually own this place. I'm just a bothersome intruder." And he slinked conveniently away. While I put on my makeup. I'm not kidding. There's this little thing on my face - I put someone's makeup on it to make it go away. I feared it would be like my trojan and start appearing in new places.
Everyone I met today was very pleasant. I went to a new bank, but didn't have my license so that didn't work, but fine. Then I ate a salad and went to the library. I thought I would take care of an illegitimate bill from an old credit card, but I didn't have sufficient documentation. I paid this a long time ago but they keep hounding me. Fine. Then I bought some sunflower seeds and stuff and waited for the bus. I talked to a redneck couple who said I looked like Jerry Seinfeld. The guy said he saw Nancy Reagan shopping at Logli supermarket. We jammered. He said one of the bus-drivers looks like Ronald Reagan senior. I told him that info reminded me of a Camper Van Beethoven song. And also-too that I talked to Ron Reagan junior on the radio machine. Then I got on the bus and the little cute black bus driver was eying me. That's special. And so is her small yet protrusive butt.
So I shopped at Logli on Rockton, then I caught a bus to Hilander and shopped there. All told, I spent $300, plus the over $100 on Halloween. That's a hell of a lot of money. But it was all worth the 8 (fricken) pomegranates!
Took a cab home and the cab lady yelled at me so I smiled and yelled back at her and we became fabulous friends. It is truly a testament to my amazingness that one minute someone is yelling at me and the next I've got them carrying my groceries into my house, chatting and laughing. But really, everyone was nice today. Pretty much. Because I looked like Seinfeld. Which is odd, because I've been thinking about him lately. Anyway, dog was happy to see me and all his new treats. "Ruff," he said.
I had so many groceries I couldn't get the fridge door opened - fact!
I have to go now. However, I wish to mention that I have a LJ friend who is in some serious trouble right now. She has FMS/CFS and things are falling apart fast. If anyone can be a friend to her, please add glitterophelia.
Also, I've been spending some time editing IP blocking lists, and it's been fun yet paradoxical and frustrating. I don't know how long I can last, because I know this computer is infected, and so it seems, from much evidence, that there is a hacker or more getting in and changing things. I might have to disappear again I don't know. But it's not like I didn't expect or plan for this. OK. Goodnight y'all.
Oh - I never switched my clocks and so I'm still an hour ahead. And my computer is on Central American time. This is really working for me. Make life as weird as you can without getting bothered. A little weirdness keeps chupacabra away.
(When I was eating my salad, I noticed that, in the right acoustics, "My Best Friend's Girlfriend", (Cars), has a completely different riff going on, especially in the first part of the song. I hate the cars tho).
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| Yes, this is relevant to this community lol |
[10 Nov 2009|08:18pm] |
I'm a total movie geek who spends way too much time on sites like Cinematical. So imagine my surprise when I heard the music playing during the first trailer released for the upcoming Clash of the Titans film! What do you think? I'm looking forward to the movie myself, because it looks way good (and I adore me some Liam Neeson), and the instrumentals on this trailer just fit it so well! :)
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[09 Nov 2009|10:41am] |
what happens when you block loopback 127.0.01 - ?
i blocked it and everything seems fine
... other than all these chinese hackers who want me - but that's normal everyday
and woe - did you see 60 Minutes last night - about omnipresent HACKERS?! - see! I'M NOT CRAZY!!!!
and today i heard on the Chg news channel about a "NEW" trojan that takes you to porn sites and puts kiddie porn on your comp - and so a lot of innocent people have been arrested as child molesters!
well - this ISN'T NEW! it happened to me around 2004 or such - And i didn't get arrested, but i think my family became very distant towards me after i tried and tried to explain the new $1000 phone bill and how it was all related to this kiddie porn thing!
so you see - i'm never letting that crap happen again! NEVER!
although i do act like a little kid most of the time.
but i don't even go to porn sites anymore.
i spend most my time on loopback.
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[08 Nov 2009|08:16pm] |
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Im trying to come up with some good idea's on what to make/use for the kurt halsey sublime stitching kit. I was wondering if anyone else has made anything? and would like to share
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| Mushrooms, Des Moines, and the Dahli Lentil Chef |
[08 Nov 2009|05:52pm] |
Today I made some lentil stew with beans and peas, and it is good. The last time I made this, which is my staple Indian Dahl, it was much more like wonderful burrito beans. This time, it still has everything I need, (pepper, chili, mushrooms, carrots, onion), but it is more like a delicate (but spicy) gazpachio with subtle flavours swimming up at you like dancing porpoises. And I think one reason for this is that I didn't use tomato paste this time, but canned whole and diced tomatoes, with some tomato sauce. Also more dandelion. I also tended towards more orange and licorice highlights. Highlights is a stupid word. So snooty. Like it belongs in Prairie Home Companion - which, btw, was GREAT the last two times, in Bismark and Des Moines. Speaking of the latter, see below. Anyway, what was I talking about? Oh, yes - having sex with porpoises - no wait... Lentils... There happened to be a radio show about lentils (and additional legumes) on NPR, (The Splendid Table), just after I made MY lentils. I don't know about you, but I feel that legumes are getting far too much attention these days, and that tubers are getting squeezed out! And green.... pepper... was... a prominant flavour in my last Dahli batch, which I still want to add to THIS Dahli batch... THIS one would accommodate that, plus light flavours of pineapple and green beans. I often tend towards Moroccan when I cook... Indian, Mexican, etc., which is why I am interested in learning about Brazilian cooking. I think I'd like it.
I also love the four following things in combo, heavy on the everything: Onion, salt, noodles and oil. You can go from Chinese to Ethiopian to Italian to whatever with this foundation. But the oil has to be good. Today I made ramen like this, with cumin, nutmeg, chili, dandelion, mushrooms, celery salt... It was something a snail in the back yard would die for. And it was so good, and somewhat nutty, it reminded me of something a friend made for me that included tofu, which took on a wonderful nutty taste from its oily veggie surroundings, and now I want to start doing that. The only problem is that I never cook with tofu, I eat it all before I cook it. mmmm... salty tofu without salmonella...
Speaking of mushrooms, I have found that they taste better if you let them sit for days and get all slippery. Really. They're kinda like tuna-fish that way. (boing!) And the white or the portabella mushrooms? I say fuck it. Get the cheaper big "steak" mushrooms - you don't need to slice them just break up the pre-slices with you fingers. And a fast, easy way to cut carrots? Bite them into slices and blow them into your pot - ha ha! But only if you cook for yourself.
Played with big-mouthed dog today.
Speaking of Des Moines... For some reason, my computer IP doesn't trace back to where I actually live, it traces back to Des Moines. Then I realised that the fake city I had my LIVE JOURNAL in was ALSO Des Moines. (I set it that way a few years ago). So - maybe I was right about the government scanning my computer when I first got online with my new configuration. I knew there was possibly a screen-reader going on, leaving a .gov cookie. So, maybe they read my LJ while I was posting yo. I just think that is verrry interesting. Anyway, now I put my LJ in SPOKANE, so good luck Uncle Samsung. Suddenly, after realising this Des Moines surreality, I listen to A Prairie Home Companion - recorded in Des Moines!
Did you know that the Whooping Crane train has stopped here in this county, because the weather is so warm and windy, they don't want to fly south?!
I have to get myself together and accomplish much tomorrow. I'll make a cool $150 just by opening an additional checking account. Other stuff, more major shopping, etc. Have also to clean a lot soon if I'm still as un-ill as I am now. So I'll be away from the computer for a while, thank god.
You're Welcome, little guy in Des Moines.
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[08 Nov 2009|10:39pm] |
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so exhausted all the time and then the minute i get into bed, i feel so awake.
i feel like i havn't slept since the beginning of April. how many more months will this continue on for?
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[07 Nov 2009|11:02am] |
Getting your license taken away for drunk driving is not a violation of your rights.
Neither is getting arrested for breaking parole and driving drunk.
Fuck.
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